[He lets Yingxing catch him, but refuses to look at him. It hurts too much. He's been ground down so much he doesn't know how to weather anything more. He's so damned tired...]
Do you really think I haven't tried to stand up for myself? You think I'd choose to hurt you if I had any other choice? I know it's twisted, I just can't get out.
[Jing Yuan leans away from that pull at first, not quite willing to trust it. He's tense, like he's expecting this moment of reassurance to evaporate at any second.]
You should be afraid of him.
[That bravery honestly just makes Jing Yuan nervous. But... He wants terribly to be comforted and to comfort Yingxing in turn, so he gives in with a soft, low whine and embraces the man. In fact he goes right to putting his face directly against Yingxing's chest.]
Please don't mention me to him. It's me who'll pay that price.
[ when jing yuan gives in and slumps against him, yingxing feels some of the tension in his chest beginning to loosen. maybe he should be afraid, but yingxing is and always has been a noticeably fearless man. dan feng could eviscerate him daily, and yingxing would still fight him. would still not fear him. ]
Yeah. I won't.
[ because, despite his anger, it all comes from a place of love. he'll protect jing yuan in any way he can, even if it means going along with dan feng, for now, however much yingxing wants to rail against it.
but he's still brewing his plans. still going to go through with his idea, even if he has to fight tooth and nail to do it. but for now.. for now, he loops his other arm around jing yuan as well, cradling him near, dipping his head to nuzzle into that soft, fluffy hair, pressing a kiss there. ]
Sorry. I didn't mean to bite your head off. For me, it's been.. centuries since I last had you. I didn't want to lose that.
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[He lets Yingxing catch him, but refuses to look at him. It hurts too much. He's been ground down so much he doesn't know how to weather anything more. He's so damned tired...]
Do you really think I haven't tried to stand up for myself? You think I'd choose to hurt you if I had any other choice? I know it's twisted, I just can't get out.
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[ yingxing sighs heavily, pressing his brow to jing yuan's and closing his eyes. ]
I'm not afraid of him, and I never will be, no matter what he does to me. No matter what he's become. C'mere. Please.
[ he releases one of jing yuan's wrists, so he can hook that arm around his waist instead, trying to gently pull him closer. ]
Do what you have to do to keep yourself safe. I'll figure something out.
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You should be afraid of him.
[That bravery honestly just makes Jing Yuan nervous. But... He wants terribly to be comforted and to comfort Yingxing in turn, so he gives in with a soft, low whine and embraces the man. In fact he goes right to putting his face directly against Yingxing's chest.]
Please don't mention me to him. It's me who'll pay that price.
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Yeah. I won't.
[ because, despite his anger, it all comes from a place of love. he'll protect jing yuan in any way he can, even if it means going along with dan feng, for now, however much yingxing wants to rail against it.
but he's still brewing his plans. still going to go through with his idea, even if he has to fight tooth and nail to do it. but for now.. for now, he loops his other arm around jing yuan as well, cradling him near, dipping his head to nuzzle into that soft, fluffy hair, pressing a kiss there. ]
Sorry. I didn't mean to bite your head off. For me, it's been.. centuries since I last had you. I didn't want to lose that.
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[He mutters, emotionally exhausted and muffled by Yingxing's... pillows.]
I've been... completely alone. I don't want to lose this either.
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for the moment, it doesn't entirely matter. what matters is keeping jing yuan close. against his pillows. ]
I'm here. [ he murmurs into his hair. ] And I'm going to figure something out. I swear it. Just stay safe, for now.