[ The brothel is the only life Dan Heng has ever known.
Before this place, there was a cold, lonely room where she sat, most of the time in chains. There were the Preceptors, pushy and abusive, feeding her the bare minimum so that she would survive. There was the knowledge only that she was defective, that her memories hadn't come back the way they wanted, that she would never be the High Elder they had expected her to be.
In the back of her mind and her heart, what was left of Dan Feng would seethe at the mistreatment. But she was too weak to do anything, too untrained in her own abilities.
The year before she became of age, things changed. They started feeding her properly. Dressing her up. Dan Heng thought things with them were changing.
But it was all in the name of selling her over to the brothel as soon as she was old enough to serve. Her name, they told her, was Xiangyue. She had no past. No connection to the former High Elder. She was, simply, a penniless orphan on whom the brothel had taken pity.
It turned out to be a better life than she could have imagined. At first, she was shy about sex, but her new family taught her quickly. The madam loves her like a mother, and has continued to keep her safe all these years. Her life is one of luxury, with the same privileges and responsibilities afforded the head courtesan—but without the official title, in order to keep her flying under the notice of the Preceptors, should they start poking around.
The madam is clever. Dan Heng—Xiangyue—loves her.
Today, she has no clients booked. She's been handling some work behind the scenes for the madam, but it's not long after Yingxing sits that she all but glides out of the side room, wearing naught but silken robes and tinkling bells. Luminous eyes scan the room and catch sight of the furnace master, his drink bordering on empty—and so she moves across the room to him, fixing him with a warm, gentle smile. ]
It seems you are nearly finished with your drink, xiansheng. May I offer you a refill?
Before this place, there was a cold, lonely room where she sat, most of the time in chains. There were the Preceptors, pushy and abusive, feeding her the bare minimum so that she would survive. There was the knowledge only that she was defective, that her memories hadn't come back the way they wanted, that she would never be the High Elder they had expected her to be.
In the back of her mind and her heart, what was left of Dan Feng would seethe at the mistreatment. But she was too weak to do anything, too untrained in her own abilities.
The year before she became of age, things changed. They started feeding her properly. Dressing her up. Dan Heng thought things with them were changing.
But it was all in the name of selling her over to the brothel as soon as she was old enough to serve. Her name, they told her, was Xiangyue. She had no past. No connection to the former High Elder. She was, simply, a penniless orphan on whom the brothel had taken pity.
It turned out to be a better life than she could have imagined. At first, she was shy about sex, but her new family taught her quickly. The madam loves her like a mother, and has continued to keep her safe all these years. Her life is one of luxury, with the same privileges and responsibilities afforded the head courtesan—but without the official title, in order to keep her flying under the notice of the Preceptors, should they start poking around.
The madam is clever. Dan Heng—Xiangyue—loves her.
Today, she has no clients booked. She's been handling some work behind the scenes for the madam, but it's not long after Yingxing sits that she all but glides out of the side room, wearing naught but silken robes and tinkling bells. Luminous eyes scan the room and catch sight of the furnace master, his drink bordering on empty—and so she moves across the room to him, fixing him with a warm, gentle smile. ]
It seems you are nearly finished with your drink, xiansheng. May I offer you a refill?
[ It's true that any of the others would know that Yingxing is wealthy just to look at him. But Xiangyue... she's sheltered enough, has been lonely enough, that she's never seen his face. The identity of the furnace master is unknown to her. She had just simply noticed that his drink needed filling.
Yet, as his eyes meet hers, he freezes in a way that gives her pause. She half-turns, waves another courtesan over to take the glass and return to the bar to top it up.
And she crouches, looking up at him with something on her face that he will recognize as genuine concern. ]
Xiansheng. Are you alright? You look as if—
[ —you've seen a ghost— ]
—you feel quite unwell. May I take you somewhere quieter?
Yet, as his eyes meet hers, he freezes in a way that gives her pause. She half-turns, waves another courtesan over to take the glass and return to the bar to top it up.
And she crouches, looking up at him with something on her face that he will recognize as genuine concern. ]
Xiansheng. Are you alright? You look as if—
[ —you've seen a ghost— ]
—you feel quite unwell. May I take you somewhere quieter?
[ Sheltered though she might be, Dan Heng does know the circumstances of her birth.
And so, when Yingxing says what he does, her heart sinks in her chest. He's the right age, and...
Still, she keeps herself professional. With that same gentle smile on her face, she stands again, reaching a hand out for him to take. When he does, she'll lead him not to her room—he hasn't asked for that kind of service—but to a quiet lounge set aside for private use. The other courtesan follows only for long enough to give Yingxing his refilled drink before disappearing once more. ]
Come. Sit with me.
[ She perches on the plush sofa, releasing his hand to allow him to sit—either on the same seat, or a different one. ]
And so, when Yingxing says what he does, her heart sinks in her chest. He's the right age, and...
Still, she keeps herself professional. With that same gentle smile on her face, she stands again, reaching a hand out for him to take. When he does, she'll lead him not to her room—he hasn't asked for that kind of service—but to a quiet lounge set aside for private use. The other courtesan follows only for long enough to give Yingxing his refilled drink before disappearing once more. ]
Come. Sit with me.
[ She perches on the plush sofa, releasing his hand to allow him to sit—either on the same seat, or a different one. ]
You don't need to apologize. [ Her voice is gentle, warm with natural affection she's learned to have in talking to any of their clientele. ] This is your first time here, isn't it? Sometimes the atmosphere can be overwhelming. We have rooms like this for just that reason.
[ Her hands fold primly in her lap as she offers him a small smile, one entirely void of any judgement. Now that she's not worrying about his health or what he's seen in her, she can take a moment to look at him—to really look. He's a short-life species, that much is clear from the soft lines that crease the corners of his eyes and the white of his hair. But he's remarkably handsome too, and there seems to be a strength to the way he moves.
She bows slightly to him, even though they're still sitting. The bells tinkle, delicate, like chimes on the wind. ]
My name is Xiangyue. May I know yours also, xiansheng?
[ Her hands fold primly in her lap as she offers him a small smile, one entirely void of any judgement. Now that she's not worrying about his health or what he's seen in her, she can take a moment to look at him—to really look. He's a short-life species, that much is clear from the soft lines that crease the corners of his eyes and the white of his hair. But he's remarkably handsome too, and there seems to be a strength to the way he moves.
She bows slightly to him, even though they're still sitting. The bells tinkle, delicate, like chimes on the wind. ]
My name is Xiangyue. May I know yours also, xiansheng?
[ The Flying Comet. In his title, she understands exactly why he looked at her so strangely. He isn't merely the right age, he's— ]
...of the High-Cloud Quintet, [ she says, and her voice is a tiny bit softer for a moment than perhaps it should be. She's quick to pull herself back together, though, not wanting him to find himself uncomfortable all over again.
The High-Cloud Quintet, made up of Dan Feng and his four closest friends and allies...
The playful smile on her lips, though, belies the swirling discomfort in the pit of her stomach. ]
In that case, it's no wonder that everyone out there was looking at you, Yingxing. [ She leaves room for a slight pause before she teases: ] Or maybe that's just because of your handsome face.
...of the High-Cloud Quintet, [ she says, and her voice is a tiny bit softer for a moment than perhaps it should be. She's quick to pull herself back together, though, not wanting him to find himself uncomfortable all over again.
The High-Cloud Quintet, made up of Dan Feng and his four closest friends and allies...
The playful smile on her lips, though, belies the swirling discomfort in the pit of her stomach. ]
In that case, it's no wonder that everyone out there was looking at you, Yingxing. [ She leaves room for a slight pause before she teases: ] Or maybe that's just because of your handsome face.
[ She offers him a playful wink. ]
Or maybe you did, and I just have an excellent poker face.
[ He's flirting, which leaves her to reciprocate. It's the dance they're taught to follow—or lead, if necessary—with their clientele, noting their interest and returning it, offering just enough of a taste that they leave their cards with the house.
But she's also genuinely interested, something inside her stirring awake, interested in him and what he has to say. In that smile. ]
I leave it to you to find that out, Yingxing-xiansheng~.
Or maybe you did, and I just have an excellent poker face.
[ He's flirting, which leaves her to reciprocate. It's the dance they're taught to follow—or lead, if necessary—with their clientele, noting their interest and returning it, offering just enough of a taste that they leave their cards with the house.
But she's also genuinely interested, something inside her stirring awake, interested in him and what he has to say. In that smile. ]
I leave it to you to find that out, Yingxing-xiansheng~.
Try a little harder, hm?
[ She reaches out, placing one delicate hand in his as her head tilts, curiosity in her eyes. She can tell he's nervous. But, truth be told, so is she: the (broken) reincarnation of someone famously very important to him.
(Of course, she has no idea how important.)
With any luck, this will be his first and only visit, and it will never have to come up between the two of them. And yet... somehow, even now, she suspects that won't be the case.
Still, she smiles. ]
What, exactly, do you propose?
[ She reaches out, placing one delicate hand in his as her head tilts, curiosity in her eyes. She can tell he's nervous. But, truth be told, so is she: the (broken) reincarnation of someone famously very important to him.
(Of course, she has no idea how important.)
With any luck, this will be his first and only visit, and it will never have to come up between the two of them. And yet... somehow, even now, she suspects that won't be the case.
Still, she smiles. ]
What, exactly, do you propose?
[ She laughs softly, eyes twinkling, although she falls quiet once more when he lifts her hand to press a kiss against the skin.
Just a moment ago, she was telling herself that this would be okay, as long as he didn't come back again. But the feeling of his mouth against her skin is fire, and it takes everything in her not to tear it back.
She has the freedom to choose her own clientele, nowadays. She would be a fool to deny him, but...
This isn't fair. Not to him, for his closeness to Dan Feng.
Not for her, for not being the person he sees in her.
Her smile is a little more strained than normal as she withdraws her hand from his. ]
Then, I should bring you out to the others again, should I not? Let you find someone suitable with whom to spend your time.
Just a moment ago, she was telling herself that this would be okay, as long as he didn't come back again. But the feeling of his mouth against her skin is fire, and it takes everything in her not to tear it back.
She has the freedom to choose her own clientele, nowadays. She would be a fool to deny him, but...
This isn't fair. Not to him, for his closeness to Dan Feng.
Not for her, for not being the person he sees in her.
Her smile is a little more strained than normal as she withdraws her hand from his. ]
Then, I should bring you out to the others again, should I not? Let you find someone suitable with whom to spend your time.
[ He startles, and there's a strange hurt in her, not only because she knows she caused it, but because she doesn't actually want him to pull away.
But this is what's best. She knows that, and so she doesn't relent.
Instead, she offers him a small, distant smile as she also rises to her feet. ]
I will tell the madam that you are looking for a companion. She can help you.
[ And she'll lead him back to the main room before separating to do just that and then staying out the back so she doesn't have to talk further to him.
He doesn't see her again during his visit.
But she still sees it, through the silky curtain, as he's paired off with one of her coworkers.
She hates, more than anything, how sick she feels at the sight. ]
But this is what's best. She knows that, and so she doesn't relent.
Instead, she offers him a small, distant smile as she also rises to her feet. ]
I will tell the madam that you are looking for a companion. She can help you.
[ And she'll lead him back to the main room before separating to do just that and then staying out the back so she doesn't have to talk further to him.
He doesn't see her again during his visit.
But she still sees it, through the silky curtain, as he's paired off with one of her coworkers.
She hates, more than anything, how sick she feels at the sight. ]
[ That night, she doesn't sleep.
The night after isn't much better.
For nights on end, Dan Heng finds herself tossing and turning in her bed, far too awake no matter how bus she has been over the course of her evening. When she does sleep, she's haunted by dreams that feel like memories of roughened hands on her waist, a mouth leaving burning kisses on her skin.
She takes a day off work, claiming she's sick, to try and catch up on the sleep. To no avail.
She's back to work today, makeup concealing the dark circles under her eyes and a professional, dazzling smile hiding the burning frustration—the obsession keeping her awake.
And then.. she sees him, and it's as if the rest of the world grinds to a halt.
She shouldn't, not after last time, but she can't help the way she drifts to him. Her professional smile wobbles just a little, revealing—to her chagrin—her uncertainty in having done so. She fixes it a moment later. ]
You must have had a pleasant experience last time, xiansheng, to do us the honor of visiting us again so soon.
The night after isn't much better.
For nights on end, Dan Heng finds herself tossing and turning in her bed, far too awake no matter how bus she has been over the course of her evening. When she does sleep, she's haunted by dreams that feel like memories of roughened hands on her waist, a mouth leaving burning kisses on her skin.
She takes a day off work, claiming she's sick, to try and catch up on the sleep. To no avail.
She's back to work today, makeup concealing the dark circles under her eyes and a professional, dazzling smile hiding the burning frustration—the obsession keeping her awake.
And then.. she sees him, and it's as if the rest of the world grinds to a halt.
She shouldn't, not after last time, but she can't help the way she drifts to him. Her professional smile wobbles just a little, revealing—to her chagrin—her uncertainty in having done so. She fixes it a moment later. ]
You must have had a pleasant experience last time, xiansheng, to do us the honor of visiting us again so soon.
[ His smile is natural. Welcoming. None of the rejection she convinced herself for a moment she would see. (And how could she blame him for it, if that is indeed what she saw?) She takes it for what it is, moving to prop herself on the arm of his chair and turning herself toward him.
Her interest is no doubt clear, despite her having turned him away last time. ]
Have you been given the full tour yet? I would be happy to show you around, if you like.
[ She pauses for a moment. After what occurred between them last, she owes him more than just a sign of her interest. She's quite sure he could sense it then, and yet she turned him away. So... ]
Or, if you prefer, I could show you to my room instead. [ Her practiced smile turns a little rueful. ] I was feeling under the weather during your last visit...
Her interest is no doubt clear, despite her having turned him away last time. ]
Have you been given the full tour yet? I would be happy to show you around, if you like.
[ She pauses for a moment. After what occurred between them last, she owes him more than just a sign of her interest. She's quite sure he could sense it then, and yet she turned him away. So... ]
Or, if you prefer, I could show you to my room instead. [ Her practiced smile turns a little rueful. ] I was feeling under the weather during your last visit...
[ With his agreement, Xiangyue slips her arm through his and takes him through the establishment, showing him the private lounges, the game rooms, the bars, everything that could hope to be of interest. Only when they're done does she guide him back through the wing where the courtesans' public rooms are, explaining to him that each of them has rooms for pleasure and rooms for their private use during their downtime.
They come to a halt outside one of the rooms, her hand resting on the doorframe. Silks and thin metal chains cascade down her pale arms as she smiles at him. ]
This one is mine.
[ She's feeling, suddenly, all too vulnerable. Night after night spent with him on her mind—but she wouldn't blame him if he walked away from her now. She knows how thin her reasoning was; as a customer she slighted, she's lucky he accepted it.
She hides it behind a warm smile. ]
Would you still like to tour it, xiansheng? Or should I take you back so you can choose someone more to your liking?
They come to a halt outside one of the rooms, her hand resting on the doorframe. Silks and thin metal chains cascade down her pale arms as she smiles at him. ]
This one is mine.
[ She's feeling, suddenly, all too vulnerable. Night after night spent with him on her mind—but she wouldn't blame him if he walked away from her now. She knows how thin her reasoning was; as a customer she slighted, she's lucky he accepted it.
She hides it behind a warm smile. ]
Would you still like to tour it, xiansheng? Or should I take you back so you can choose someone more to your liking?

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